I’ve missed my smile.
What a funny comment, huh?
But I realized a few weeks ago that I haven’t had that too much. No reason really. Just too much in my head. Just too many frustrations.
I found it again.
It’s funny because last week, a fortune cookie I got said “you will find something you lost”. It was during a time when I was trying to sort myself out. I was dreaming things. I was thinking. I was writing. I was dumping on those closest to me. And so many things in the universe were pointing to the fact I was going to find what I lost.
And I feel like I did.
I’m being more me than I have in a while.
I missed me.
I missed laughing while I was at work because of message exchanges I am having.
I missed flipping shit at people.
I missed smiling.
And being happy.
I feel like the rain is finally going away….
….and the sun is finally shining through.
While I feel like others around me are struggling with spring, I feel like I’ve finally broken through the earth and I’m stretching myself to the sun again.
I’ve missed the warmth.
I need to stand in the sun for a while.
With my face turned up to the sky….
….as I soak in the rays.