Today has been one of those days where at a certain point, I just wanted to sit down and cry.

I was frustrated at the continued bullshit on one of my projects – and people not understanding that if I say I’m frustrated that in normal people terms, it means I’m about ready to jump out a window.  Realizing I’m too competent for my own good – finding myself alone in how I was feeling about things – yeah, I just wanted to sit down and cry – the emotions boiling over into my eyes.

It wasn’t just about work – but that seemed to be the trigger point that brought other things to the surface.  The fact all of these things came to me was unexpected – it wasn’t until the feelings were tumbling through my heart and head that I realized I had been bottling things up.

And they all threatened to come tumbling out.

At work.

So I put on my headphones and listened to an audiobook that typically makes me smile.  It did enough to get me through the day.  Then I came home to an empty house – and it hit again.

I’m trying to be kind to myself.  But that’s not my default setting. So it may be a hot bath – then bed.  Just put this day behind me instead of trying to keep pushing onward.

Sometimes self care is all you can do.