Today has been one of those days where at a certain point, I just wanted to sit down and cry.
I was frustrated at the continued bullshit on one of my projects – and people not understanding that if I say I’m frustrated that in normal people terms, it means I’m about ready to jump out a window. Realizing I’m too competent for my own good – finding myself alone in how I was feeling about things – yeah, I just wanted to sit down and cry – the emotions boiling over into my eyes.
It wasn’t just about work – but that seemed to be the trigger point that brought other things to the surface. The fact all of these things came to me was unexpected – it wasn’t until the feelings were tumbling through my heart and head that I realized I had been bottling things up.
And they all threatened to come tumbling out.
So I put on my headphones and listened to an audiobook that typically makes me smile. It did enough to get me through the day. Then I came home to an empty house – and it hit again.
I’m trying to be kind to myself. But that’s not my default setting. So it may be a hot bath – then bed. Just put this day behind me instead of trying to keep pushing onward.
Sometimes self care is all you can do.