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Intimacy

It is easy to strip off one’s clothes. To lay oneself physically bare before another person. It is easy to spread one’s legs and show off a part of your physical self no one gets to see. But it is harder to strip away the veneer. It is harder to remove the facade that is…

Tuesday Tumblings

Last night, we attended the Oregon Symphony who was playing their final night of Beethoven’s 9th Symphony (think Ode to Joy, if you need a hint). James DePreist, a man who made the Oregon Symphony what it is today, died over the weekend. He was a wonderful man to watch conduct – and spent 23 years as…

Worth

I don’t deserve what I have. I often look at my life – my stuff, the people in it, and I feel like I somehow bamboozled the universe into thinking I deserve what I have. I often feel like I’m greedy, like I’m selfish – that somehow I have too much while people have too…

So Far….

I started my week off like this: It’s funny how events can create sort of a dominio effect that then creates a vortex by which the happy gets sucked out of the world. And it resulted in this: Seriously, I went to bed at like 8pm because I was just done. I curled up under…

Sadness

I lost a friend. He took his life to escape whatever pain he felt. All we know of him is his smile That amazing smile of his – a permanent fixture on his face. And his hugs. Oh, he hugged everyone. Holding them tight. Giving them his full attention. I am trying to hold onto…

Brain Dump

Great Wolf Lodge is like a giant, over-family-friendly resort. Kids and parents are running all over the place playing games. They do games in the lobby. They have drawing stations everywhere. They have a spa for kids. Oh yeah, and the gigantic water park. For someone like me who struggles with malls and other loud…

Wide Awake

I’m sitting here in my hotel room which looks out onto the ocean – listening to the waves crash against the shore and rocks. Oh, and it’s 2am. I have nothing on my mind really. Just had a relaxing day – a day where my brain isn’t ready to sleep yet. Nothing in particular is…

On My Sleeve

I wear my heart on my sleeve. Having it there – where all can see – showing those who I love how I feel is risky. It’s the riskiest thing I do. Having it on my sleeve means not knowing how people will treat it. Because, truth be told, I do not guard it well….

Random Thoughts

Here are random thoughts bouncing around my head…. The most fun I had at Saturday’s party was the aftercare. Sitting on the couch, kissing the guy who had just hurt me, having him stroke me and poke my marks as I stroked his cock through his pants – and I had a woman on the…

So What Do I Need

Ugh!!!! I need blogger to not delete my entire post!!! Sigh. Carry on. Hopefully I will be able to rewrite later.