Three Years Ago

Three years ago, I woke up in his arms. We had come back to my house from a kinky New Year’s Eve party.  It was late; we were high on the energy of the night.  I invited him to stay the night with me. I remember vividly, standing in my living room, our arms wrapped around…

Words That Make Me Feel

Words that express how I feel better than me….   There are some people in your life that just feel like home.  Home feels familiar. Home feels comfortable.  Home feels like a place where you can be you – it is safe – it is good – it is true. I am blessed to feel…

Climax and Tears

We went to see the new Star Wars film in a movie theatre connected by a brew pub.  It’s a neat theater with a balcony and great seats and sounds.  Plus beer and theater delivery of food.  Our joke was that our Christmas dinner was going to be burgers and beers and truthfully, it was….

Out of Whack

My biggest challenge as someone who identifies as polyamorous is keeping my love whole while keeping my other love – and myself – whole. I think sometimes that people who are polyamorous are looked at as people who have it all together. And some days, I feel I do.  And some days, I feel like…

Absence

I feel this. Truly. I was away from SB for almost two weeks. And while that time apart could have extinguished what we have – I only felt the opposite. The weekend was great together – a time when we reconnected – talked, laughed, kissed, and just enjoyed each others energy. It is never easy…

“I do not think it means what you think it means”

“You’re doing it wrong, you know?” she asked before she took a sip of her drink. “Wrong?” I asked. “What am I doing wrong?” “Poly. You really aren’t poly because you aren’t doing it right. Very VERY few people do poly right.” I was a bit perplexed at this random, right-field comment she had suddenly…

Labels Are For Jars

Monday night, I snagged DJ who was about to get on the train home and gave her a ride home instead. Really, I just wanted someone to go with me to the store because I knew it would be a mad house. And why go alone. While we were driving, she started babbling as she…

My Surreal Life

“OMG – I totally LOVED the year HUMP featured this couple – and they went into the woods, he tied her up, and spun her around while suspended from a tree.  It was AMAZING!” One of our two favorite bar staff members at a local brew pub we frequent.  She and her cohort – a…

My Poly Is Not Your Poly, And That’s OK

I go through phases where I love listening to podcasts as I work.  Sometimes I cannot listen to enough – gorging myself on as many of them as I can while I’m at my desk working on things.  Other times, I just want music – my head already feeling full of ideas and information –…

Poly Guilt

I’ve started several posts about this topic but have never gone too far.  Poly guilt is the topic.  For me, poly guilt is defined as that feeling you have being poly with multiple partners and worrying you aren’t doing enough for any of them.  That maybe you are selfish for having multiples – maybe even…