I have a post all written up – and decided not to push Publish to post it. While there is nothing in it that I worry about saying – it’s all truth – it’s just fucking sad. Sad having the realization that someone who has been a part of your life for more than half…
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Illegitimi non carborundum
I have this mock-Latin phrase taped to my monitor at work. “Illegitimi non carborundum“ Don’t let the bastards grind you down. My Father-in-law reminded me of this phrase a few weeks ago when work had just redone the schedule thereby fucking up my summer (again – 2 years in a row now). He claimed it…
Duty vs Love
When I stumbled across this earlier, it sung to me. I was just having this conversation last night – how much I do out of duty as a wife, as a breadwinner, as a daughter, as a mom, as a manager. And at times, I feel like that’s all I do – is worry that…
Go With The Flow
I got the good news about my mom yesterday afternoon, then upon seeing the weight of the stress fall away from my parents, left them to rest. I went to seek my own recharge from my own stress. Normally, a group full of kinky people will do it, so I headed to the munch. I…
“It’s Not Who You Are….”
“You don’t deal with uncertainty. You want to know exactly where you stand with people – what is happening and that it’s all good. You don’t do limbo well. You can’t be patient because unclear and uncertain and unknown is not a place you thrive. It’s a place you panic. I get it – I…
90 Day Challenge
So in an effort to hold myself accountable – I am tracking my progress on the 90 day challenge I was talked into participating into. So I don’t annoy people with the daily posts – I will be updating each day in the subsection in my menu. See the 90 Day Challenge section. Yeah, I’m…
Breathe in the Air
Some days are still like before. My heart aching. Even though we are talking and all, it still aches. I try to tell myself it’s like a wound healing – it itches at times, hurts and feels worse than you know it is. It’s just the cost of healing – sometimes it gets worse before…
Things I Do When I Can’t Sleep
I woke up for some reason at about 1:30am. And could NOT get back to sleep. So what does a person do at 1:30am when wide awake? I….. Read a book I’ve read 20 million times. Why is that my criteria? Because reading something new could wake me up if it is interesting – then…
