Un-Slumping

Yesterday, I realized I had spent my week longing for the things that “would make things better for me” or “make me feel better” – less stressed, happier, content, get my energy back to where I wanted it to be.  The stress of the week  – the energy being expended out vs taken in –…

Bull By The Horns

The zodiac is always one of those things I can take or leave. Like anything, you can find yourself in it if you look hard enough.  As I have been reminded for most of my life – I’m a Taurus born in the year of the Ox (per Chinese zodiac).  Bull + Ox = uhm,…

Why Age Triggers Me

I’m pretty much ignoring Fetlife right now.  Because each time I go onto there, I get pissed off by their age discussion.  As I told a friend recently, it’s because it triggers me.  And for my own sanity, I have had to try to avoid it.  But with an upcoming event that I’m responsible for,…

Lightning

I woke up thirsty, so quietly got out of bed in hopes of not disturbing the dogs – and headed to the kitchen for water.  While I’m standing at the sink, I see the flashes of lightning go across the sky – not just the light but the actual bolt, branches reaching out for clouds…

Missing Sleep

Sleep has been elusive for me.  Ten days ago, I was pretty sure it was hormone related. (Spike in hormones before the start of a cycle always seems to make an insomniac out of me.) Once that passed, I figured it was because of the stress of getting the house packed and moved for the…

How to Deal with Grumpy at Work

Between fighting with the dog for covers and immediately hitting stupid at work, I decided it was best to avoid people – because I was definitely grumpy.  So how am I dealing with them? Imagine killing a signature gatherer who bothered me 3 times while waiting for my food.  Coffee cup to the head –…

Mindfulness

Coming back from my weekend away, I realized something has got to change.  Trying to do it all is not working because, in order to do it all, I sacrifice what I need to stay whole.  That is space, time, activities and the like – things I can’t do because, when prioritized against other things…

Sunshine

Yeah  it’s cheesy especially after the last post, but I feel today is better.  Today will be better damn it! Because I said so! But in all seriousness – today I escape the crazy. No work.  No family running around. Just me – SB – a rocket of a car – good music – and…

Feeling Stupid

I hate feeling stupid. Most people do but I hate it to a point where it almost makes me sick. I had a mentor in the past tell me there is strength in knowing what you know, and knowing what you don’t know – and being able to tell the difference is the key.  While…

Weird Emmy Facts…

….version 10234 (or something like that.) 1. I love crossword puzzles. I do at least one per day.  I do the NY Times Monday or Tuesday puzzle as they are tend to be faster for me than the other days. The other days are harder and do not retain my attention. I’m honest.  I play…