Sad – Monday, I felt incredibly sad. My oldest is gone away to college, and I miss her face. Actually I miss hearing about her day – and her perspective about things – and her ….yeah, her. I wrote about it Monday and Sunday too, so I won’t cover it again. Just can’t look back at my week and not include that feeling. While it is getting easier, it is more under the surface than I realized. As my cohort told me, it will get better – and in 3 months, she’ll be annoyed with shit. Then in 3 years, she will never want to leave. (He has moved his family around the globe over the years, and this is the trend that continued to college.)
Excited – Next week, they will be filming a Disney movie in our neighborhood – just like five houses down from us. And G’s car is going to be in it. I signed the paperwork today. I do appreciate all that I’m learning about this process. Nice people – good communication. It should be interesting to see how it goes overall.
Annoyed – Thursday, I donated money to a cohort in need. He is a warehouse guy – supporting his wife and four kids – and was in a motorcycle accident on the way home from work last week. Did I know the guy well? Nah. All I know is that he works hard, doesn’t make nearly what he probably should (our company underpays), and is worried about his family making ends meet as he recovers. I tossed $50 his way. Someone on my team asked how I knew him – I made up something given the judgement in his voice. Then he spent the rest of the morning questioning my intentions. I pretty much ignored him because, well, I didn’t donate than blow a horn expecting attention. Nope, I did just the opposite. Yet this guy sees it as a game? Yeah, he showed his ass, if you will, with his comments because, yes, it is a game that I want someone with a long history at the company to feel supported by those who can help. What a dumbass.
It’s been a long week – and honestly, I’ve had few emotions in a good place. So I will leave you with this –