- I love it when he put his hand on my shoulder as I was talking about my family and the stress of with my brother. The caring look in his eye – his pre-emptive support of me while I talked about the subject – it took me by surprise. And I realized how lucky I was to have him in my life.
- The fire last night smelled like pumpkins – raw, freshly carved pumpkins.
- I hate sleeping alone. I miss having someone to reach out to on those nights G is gone to see if they can stay with me. Makes me sad to feel alone.
- I have decided to give up things I cannot pronounce to see what happens. Weird I know. But I am making our snacks. I am making my lunch. No diet cokes for me. And if the coffee shop can’t tell me what is in it – exactly – then it’s a straight up coffee for me. I need a radical change. But I’m not giving up beer.
- The camera store on the first floor of my building is going out of business. I will not go into the store for fear of spending money. Yet I need to because I have once again misplaced my card reader.
- I need a heavy scene. I need lots of pain to process. I need to process it by laughing and swearing and going to a place that lets me let go. I think once is not enough.
- My dog is getting old. He limps and he gimps and he can’t walk up steps. Or not easily walk up steps. I hate to think how things will be in 6 months or a year. He is 11. Labs don’t make it to 14 unless they are lucky. I love that dog. I can’t handle the thought of it.
- G taught his kids about circumcision as part of Judaism in social studies. DJ wondered aloud with her friend Miss O what they did with the foreskins. DJ thought they should save them and make a pelt or a hat or a scarf. Yep, she’s my kid.
- My new boss was telling us the possible seating chart as we shift around. He told the team he had offered me and the cohort that annoys me to share a cubicle. He was joking. Instead he put her far away from me. Thank GOD! She drives me nuts!
- My other cohort asked for a cane to smack someone around the other day. I swear she is a Domme at home.
- I think I should take erotic photos and specialize in men – naked men. Why? Because no one does it and lots of people complain about it. One male photographer explained he just doesn’t have the repoire. Oh, I think I would.
- I have fallen in love with the writings of Christopher Moore. Hilarious guy with unique stories. Downloaded another one of his trilogies last night.
- Been having some interesting talks with people lately. A Dom who is pretty funny – self aware of his crazy factor in choices of subs, but funnier than hell in how he approaches things. Been kind of an interesting past week.
- Have you ever looked back on a part of your life and felt like a fucking idiot? Yeah, me too.
- I want a new tattoo – just don’t know what.
- There are still times I want to run away from home.
#4 – Beer is good.
#5 – I’d kill for a camera store to go out of business here. Actually I’d kill for a camera store. Nearest one is 96 miles away!
#7 – You could be talking about me here…
#8 – Fry ’em up and serve with a nice french onion dip. Mmmmmm…
#14 – Oh, yeah.
#16 – Oh, yeah.