Sometimes even saying those words aloud worries me. 

Life is good.

I am happy.

And I am deciding not to hold my breath with the assumption that this too shall pass.

I am sick of being cynical that it has to end.

I am sick of holding my breath.

I just want to be happy.

So, like so many people say – I will choose to be happy.

I never understood it until about a week or so ago.  A situation came up that sort of hit me in the gut.  Per usual. And in that moment, I consciously thought – I can handle it this way and let it eat me from the inside out – or I can handle it this way and throw caution to the wind about the end result.  I chose the latter – and all went up from there.  Nothing eating me from the inside out.  Just laughter and smile are being emitted.

I feel sunnier.

I feel blissful.

I am….
……..happy.

I recognize this feeling. It’s wonderful. It’s been lost.  And I refuse to lose it again.

Because while life will throw you curve balls sometimes. Or you may hit a pot hole or two, it isn’t the end of the world. It’s just a moment in time.

But it is only those things if you resist letting it consume you.

That is my lesson of late.

Life is good.

And damn it! It will stay that way!