It was a legitimate question to my husband as I am not the same person he married. The last couple years have been a serious exploration of who I am with the past year being a series of events that have made me wonder if, perhaps, this is my midlife crisis.
“Of course I am. Why do you ask?”
So I explained. The playmates. The solo play. The group play. Going out for beers on a more regular basis. Doing my own thing versus just being at home with the girls. The list goes on.
He merely laughed at me.
“You are finally being you. There isn’t the family side of Emmy or the friend side of Emmy or the wife side of Emmy or the blogger Emmy or the work Emmy. There is just you. The Emmy I have always seen. The Emmy I always wished people could see because it was the one I have always seen. I’m just glad you are letting others see the person I’ve always enjoyed.”
I feel very lucky to be married to someone who understands. Who is not resenting me for it, but celebrating the fact I am having these discoveries.