I am usually the big “scheduler”. I’m the one who keeps track and juggles everyone’s schedules. I’m usually the one who knows who needs to be where, what appointments happen when, etc. I would lecture my husband on keeping the calendar up to date. Hell, the family calendar is online for exactly this reason. To make sure nothing gets missed – nothing gets overlooked – nothing gets double booked.
I think I should have my status as master scheduler for the family taken away.
I have been giving out dates …..in April……for plans in March.
I discovered this when I a date was given, I brought up my schedule on my computer and realized it was April I was looking at. This has resulted in schedules not matching. Plans not working out. And things I was looking forward to – I mean REALLY looking forward to – not happening.
Had I not been looking forward to things, I wouldn’t be as strong of a reaction. But, now I had. I had been looking forward to seeing my friend. And, in one minute, I went from being optimistic to see him to knowing it cannot happen. (Not at all his fault – all mine in the expectations department. Had I given the right date, things would have been known immediately.)
It will happen. We will see each other. I know it will.
But it won’t be in a week like I had hoped.
And knowing that we will see each other, doesn’t make the fact I set for myself the wrong expectations suck any less.