I didn’t sleep last night. Or, rather, I slept maybe four hours last night. Then between crazy dreams and rambling thoughts that tossed around my head when I was awake, I ended up waking at about 2am – and never going back to sleep. In hopes that tonight that I get some sleep, I present…
Tag: ponderings
Lions and Tigers and Bears! Oh, My!
I had a dream last night that I was going into a park known for having animals you can adopt roaming around. A man would bring in whatever animals needed to be adopted and let people interact with them as they sat in the park reading or whatever. I walked to the park entrance where…
Reflections
I notice reflections when I’m taking photos – typically what is shown of the world in a puddle or in a pond. Because sometimes you need to see the regular world reflected in a different way to see the world in a new way – in, maybe, the right way. Sometimes we are forced to…
Goes and Flows
A friend of mine invited me a few months ago to take a tantra class with her. Her friend teaches them on rare occasion, and the rare occasion had arrived for her next teaching. A six-month, once-once-a-month class in white tantra. Tantra is often associated with sex, but, as I’ve learned, it is greater than…
Growing Thorns
I was clipping my rose bushes this morning (not a euphemism) when I noticed my thornless bush had grown thorns. As I pulled the thorn out of my finger, I began to wonder, what prompted this rose bush – this beautiful, happy bush – to grow thorns. Before anyone gives me a scientific reason why…
Bubble of Solitude
When he and I are together sometimes, it seems we are able to create sort of a bubble of solitude around us – a period of time during the loud bar or restaurant where it seems that the loud and the noise and the people melt away and it is just us. The first…
HNT – Pondering
“Sweet, crazy conversations full of half sentences, daydreams and misunderstandings more thrilling than understanding could ever be.” ~Toni Morrison My week so far has been full of these things – disappointment – misunderstandings – crazy conversations – ups, downs – laughter and sadness. Hard to wrap one’s head around, but those sweet, crazy conversations –…
Girlfriend
Girlfriend The word caused me to pause in our conversation.The word had me looking to G to see his reaction was.The word is what SG uses to describe me. His Girlfriend. I know when he referred to me as his girlfriend the first time, my facial expressions gave me away. If I would guess, I…
Good Friends Dig Shallow Graves
I was recently talking to a friend who commented I was on his short list for those he would help bury a body. I laughed because he was the second or third person who had told me that – a nice feeling that I have friends who would do such a deed. It did make…
Fruit for Thought
My dad while serving in the military was pretty open about what his approach would be if he discovered in combat one of his men was gay. Let’s just say it involved friendly fire to keep his group focused not on watching their ass from their fellow soldier, but to keep them focused on the…
