Sunday Night Thoughts

I have had two artists drop out of the upcoming group erotic art show that I curate.  One was like “I’m so so sorry – but I’ve been sick because I’m pregnant and….” I stopped reading there and replied with “go be pregnant.  No bridges are burned – you should drop out of it you…

Epiphany

My tantra teacher used to remark during her conversations that the universe will give you what you need.  It will never give you more than you can deal with, and it may dole out the lessons you need too.  But sometimes what feels like a setback is actually the universe teeing something up for you….

Oh What A Day

Apparently I’m a psychic or psychotic or both. The kid ran away yesterday.  Some shit hit the fan at school, he got in trouble making a punishment he was already facing worse, and he decided his best course of action was to flee. “I just needed space.” That’s all anyone has been able to get…

The Evasive Sleep

Sleep has evaded me this weekend.  No matter how tired I feel – how much my body is saying, “sleep will make you feel better” – my mind, I’m guessing, is keeping me awake.  I end up sleeping in fits and starts, then find myself awake for several hour stretches in the middle of the…

Wrapping Up The Day

It did not feel like a Tuesday – it felt like much later in the week. Tonight, I took The Kid to the NWSL semi-final soccer game.  This was the game to decide who the Portland Thorns would play in the finals on Saturday.  It was a fun game to attend.  If anyone watched on…

One Goal Beyond

Regular readers of my blog know that this time of the year can involve soccer.  Okay, most of the summer can involve me talking about soccer.  Just not men’s soccer – women’s professional soccer or the NWSL.  Specifically, I like to talk about the Portland Thorns which is my favorite team.  This season, I must…

An Interesting Turn of Events

He had mentioned that a friend’s mom had dragged him to thrift shops, and he found he enjoyed it.  Did we know of any, he asked.  At the time, we mentioned we knew of a few places.  Could he come along next time? Sure, we promised. Then that was that.Fast forward to last Saturday. I…

Cows, Meditation and Self-Care

I think this summarizes well my mental process today – trying to be meditative about this transition.  Breathing – reminding myself to breathe – and at the same reminding myself to let myself feel shit – even if it isn’t shit I want to feel.  My dad called me about noon today to see how…

And then there was one….

I remember reading a parenting book while I was pregnant about attachment parenting.  The line that stood out was “if done right, your child will want down – want to explore – and do it because they know you will be there when they need you because you have always made them feel safe.” That…