Cows, Meditation and Self-Care

I think this summarizes well my mental process today – trying to be meditative about this transition.  Breathing – reminding myself to breathe – and at the same reminding myself to let myself feel shit – even if it isn’t shit I want to feel.  My dad called me about noon today to see how…

And then there was one….

I remember reading a parenting book while I was pregnant about attachment parenting.  The line that stood out was “if done right, your child will want down – want to explore – and do it because they know you will be there when they need you because you have always made them feel safe.” That…

A Rough Day

Today was such a mixed bag at work. I spent the first part of my day settling down my cohorts. The middle part of my day was talking to people concerned I’m going to leave. The latter part of my day was squashing the rumors that my cohort, then I, will be fired soon. Just…

An Emotional Hangover

I feel like I have a hangover from life this week. It started off crazy – a come-to-Jesus-meeting with the staff and the owner of the company.  A confrontation between my boss and a cohort during a meeting the next day.  Another confrontation between my boss and the same cohort the next day during another…

A Productive Day

Today was a productive day.  While I didn’t get everything I would like to get done, done – I did get some things done. Got through about 400+ photos from the kink party.  I went thru and got the set to edit down to 130.  I edited them all as low light requires me to…

Sleep? Who Needs Sleep?

My day started yesterday at about 6:30am.  My body woke up at that time mainly because I had slept in a way that made me sore, so my body woke me up to tell me it was unhappy.  I got up, took some Advil, then went back to bed because I knew today or yesterday,…

Motivational Monday

This poem is Memorial Day for me.  Each Memorial Day, we would have a short parade, then a dedication of the flags – aka those vets who died and whose families donated their flags to the Avenue of Flags would have them christened as such. Poppies – I have several in my car because if…

Through the Veil

Yesterday, a great man died. He was our neighbor.  He was a single dad who was so fucking committed to his son.  I’m not sure his son realized it, but he did so much to make sure things were good for him.  This guy was also an incredible musician.  He played with everyone – and…

Self Care Is Hard

“Love, take care of yourself.” I have heard this a number of times from a few people the last few days.  And today, I took it to heart. I went home. Since Thursday at 5:30am, I have been focused on getting to my dad, being with my dad, helping my mom, and helping my dad. …