G posted on Facebook this meme today, and I think it summarizes my week nicely:
Last night, I had a frustrating conversation with my brother. I needed someone to talk to – and in the situation, this was the best person…..or so I thought. Pretty much I needed to vent – and I got a lecture. Then he’s like “I probably am pissing you off.” I’m like, yeah, because I started this with “I need to vent” and you have decided to make this all about how you feel about a situation you don’t know much about. Pissed? Yeah, I am pissed. I read something once that made a comment about how women are expected societally to do the heavy lifting emotionally for people. How as a result, their feelings and all get pushed aside as the expectation is they address everyone else’s first. And that was how I felt. I needed to vent – I needed to, for a while, not having to first deal with other people’s feelings and situations first. And what did I get? The exact thing that pissed me off in the first place. So, as I explained to him, I spent my whole day triaging everyone else’s shit while I pushed aside my own feelings only to talk to someone who once again wants their own feelings validated while I pushed mine aside. Needless to say, my only conclusion was a decision that I’ll be —> over there for a while.
DJ comes home soon!!!! In 1 day 14hrs and 16min as of the time of this writing. Indigo has a countdown clock going. I miss that kid – but am incredibly proud of her.
This weekend, we will be starting to get ready for Christmas. It is too close, and we are so not ready. Weee.