Here I sit, waiting to hear about my car. It’s either going to be $800 or $1500. Here’s hoping it’s the low number, not the high one.
Meanwhile, I have a cat on one side of me, a dog in front of me, and the other dog zonked out on my bed…..where I wish I was because I’m fucking tired. Yesterday, I was halfway into my day when something hit me like a ton of bricks. I was feverish, I was dizzy, I was nauseous. It was weird. I walked away from the computer (I had been glued to the screen since 7:15) – tried to get some air – but each time I came back to it – everything would start up again. It was clear something with my eyes and all was going on. Started wondering if I was on the verge of an ocular migraine. I had an important meeting that afternoon – I kept telling myself I was going to power through it. Then my body told me to fuck off – so I left.
And slept for two and a half hours when I got home.
I only woke up when my boss called me with a question.
To say I’ve felt bad about leaving is an understatement. I feel like I left him handling a volatile situation which, in honesty, was really his to handle anyway. Just left him to deal with it alone. And hope that all I gave him was enough. I wanted to fill him in more on the details before I left but honestly, I was not in a state to do that. I tried. And failed.
This week has been crisis after crisis. I decided to go to the munch on Wednesday – but my head was still spinning so much from the day that I guess it showed on my face. I finally excused myself, grabbed my beer, and did a huge brain dump into a notebook I had with me. I needed to just get all that was bouncing around in my head out of my head. It helped, but I really should have just gone home and done the work.
I guess today the crisis has continued at work. Not a shock since the law of what happens when shit hits the fan was definitely in effect.
But I’m home today- dealing with my car – instead of dealing with that.
Because while I’m thankful that we have extra cars, they do not match up to my car. I have a rather long drive to and from work and discovered it’s made even longer by driving a crappy car. Yeah, I’m spoiled – and that’s okay. Honestly, though, it needed to get handled. I have had to put it off all week – there was never going to be a “right time” – so I had to make it the right time.
I’d feel bad about not having much to do at home – but, well, I’ve worked several 12 hour days this week so it’s not like they haven’t gotten their time out of me.
Other things I’ve been doing this morning —
Looking at these cool old photos of Samurai.
Marveling at this video:
Other photos of this amazing view are here.
And laughing at these comics – they are dark and were “made to ruin your childhood”.
And I’ve been trying to stay away from my Facebook account because it keeps reminding me of what I was doing a year ago. Not ready for that reminder today.
And I signed up to sell photos at an upcoming school thing. Thankfully I have time to prepare for it – and take some new non-rugby photos. I am looking forward to that.
Ok – the sun is calling me – even if the service center is not. Time for some air and a quick walk.