“Have you notice that I don’t say his name,” I commented to G.
He nodded. “I know you don’t – I know why you don’t – but say his name.”
At this point, we were talking about DJ. G had said something, and the only thing that crossed my mind, is what he has said so many times:
“She can be anything she wants – she just doesn’t know it.”
I said it but he could tell it was more than just my words.
“He would say that,” I commented.
“He?”
“Don’t make me say it,” the tears were already in my eyes.
“It’s OK – say it – I don’t care.”
So I said it – I said his name. I took deep breaths because it was hitting me more than I had expected.
“It’s ok,” he said, ” say it – it’s ok.”
Fuck.
Months have passed, yet there I still am.
Fuck.
“It’s okay – say it.”