A Weird Poly Interaction

G commented today that he loves the relationships he has. He told me all about it. One is a girlfriend. They spend lots of time together. The other is a friendship which allows them to enjoy odd things together. And he said “God, I love how this all works – I love that all is what it is. I want nothing more; I want nothing less. I like what we all have.”

He paused like I should say something, but what do I say?

Do I say I’m happy for him?  I am. But the reality is this:

“I miss having that. I don’t know what I want to do going forward.”

I said my truth – I laid it on the table. I left it there.

“Oh, I, uhm, yeah – I wish that for you,” was his response.

I pushed it aside.

I drove home.

I had shit to do. I didn’t have time to think about all of this.

My heart ached.

My heart aches.

It is what it is – but it sucks.

I won’t deny that.

What do you think?

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