I love him. Simple statement with not so simple feelings. He makes me vibrate. He makes me wet. He makes me feel so many things. And I cannot describe it. My Daddy. I have felt all day how blessed I am – that have have two men in my life who get me – who love me – who laugh with me – and give me hugs when I need it. I cherish them both. The only downside? That I have found two men who I love equally and entirely – and I am only one person. Fuck. G used to say all the time that we need a parcel of land so we could establish a commune. Yes. Yes we need that. Because they both are necessary to make me feel complete. Greedy? Sure. Reality is what it is. I love them both. I wrote another thing about secondaries – and how much I hate that word. Maybe I’ll post it when I finish it – but know that neither are lower than the other. Both are my loves – both are important to me. Both – I love. It seems weird for some. I won’t pretend to be able to explain. All I know is that for the first time ever – I feel complete – I feel whole – I feel like I should. My spouse – my paramore. Should I have both? Fuck it – it is what make me smile from ear to ear – so who fucking cares what other think? I don’t! All I know is that SB and G – together fit niches in my life – that fit. Fuck what others think! I love them both with all of my heart. I am loved. I am cherished. And boy do I feel it. What a lucky girl!