SB said to me a few weeks ago: “I am glad you had the chance to be a mom.”
We had been talking about kids – and our different views on it. I was pretty indifferent about having kids – truth be told. While many would have killed G and me for not having had that conversation before marriage, I just didn’t care. Have them – don’t have them – whatever.
So when G announced we were going to start a family a year from that day, I was sort of like “huh?” When did he ask me?? And who said I wanted kids.
Apparently – it worked out. Two kids later – two girls, born to a woman who was surrounded by boys. And I wouldn’t trade them for anything.
Funny how the universe gives you what you need. And I guess I needed two kids – two strong willed, smart assed girls to raise.
Thank the deity of your choice.
I love them. I am always in awe of how they are. I am in awe of how they look at the world – at how they are figuring out how to relate to the world. I somethings look at these kids -both of whom are almost as tall if not taller than me, and I am blown away. We created that. We did that. We nurtured them to the point they are at today.
Today, we had brunch at our house – three generations of women under one roof – my mom, G’s mom, me, and the girls. We laughed. We worked together. We ate. And it was great.
I couldn’t help but think of my own grandma when my mom yelled up at DJ and told her to wear whatever she wanted – it was more important she was with us than it was what she was dressed like. It didn’t matter. She was perfect the way she was – the way she is. And yes, my mom said that.
And as Indigo cleared the table, my MIL gave her a hug in thanks. “I can’t believe how big she’s getting – almost as tall as DJ.” Yeah, I know that feeling.
There are times when I’m sure it would have been easier for me not having them while handling other things. But a good sailor is not made by calm waters – it is made by rough seas.
I am a better person in many ways – all because I’m called Moe – my kids’ name for me.
Funny how the universe gives you what you need.
Thank you for it.
I love them – and would have it no other way.