I don’t feel like I’ve had a real conversation with anyone this week. Just seems to be a few “hi”, in passing, comments. Superficial conversations. And while there are times I don’t care. I’ve been needing connection. I’ve been needing conversation. I’ve been needing time for me – to recharge – to engage – to just be me.
I know this is how life goes sometimes. People get busy. Shit happens. But to not have connection is just incredibly hard for me.
While my head knows this will pass – that this will not be the status quo – my heart wants connection. My heart wants those who I am heart bonded with. My heart needs it.
So all I can do is try to be okay with it.
All I can do it try to remind myself that this will pass.
All I can do is try to not let it affect my mood.
All I can do is wait – be patient – and just know I’m loved and cared for.
Hard things to do when you are feeling alone – impatient – disconnected.
But, to quote Uncle Mick, You can’t always get what you want.
The story of my fucking life sometimes.