I don’t feel like I’ve had a real conversation with anyone this week.  Just seems to be a few “hi”, in passing, comments.  Superficial conversations.  And while there are times I don’t care.  I’ve been needing connection.  I’ve been needing conversation.  I’ve been needing time for me – to recharge – to engage – to just be me.

I know this is how life goes sometimes.  People get busy. Shit happens.  But to not have connection is just incredibly hard for me.

While my head knows this will pass – that this will not be the status quo – my heart wants connection.  My heart wants those who I am heart bonded with.  My heart needs it.

So all I can do is try to be okay with it.

All I can do it try to remind myself that this will pass.

All I can do is try to not let it affect my mood.

All I can do is wait – be patient – and just know I’m loved and cared for.

Hard things to do when you are feeling alone – impatient – disconnected.

But, to quote Uncle Mick, You can’t always get what you want.

The story of my fucking life sometimes.


What do you think?

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.