Our messages passed through the ether. Both of us feeling like we needed to write to the other at the same time. The last time I had this happen – it was with someone who I still have an amazing connection with. It has been a long time since that has happened. Where I feel like I can write him a note – express feelings I have – and not wonder if it will be too much.
Lord, it’s been too long since I’ve felt this way.
Like I told him during our exchange, I am not sure how much I’ll write about him on the blog. My mind if full of feelings and not words expressing them. I am too busy savoring our moments – remembering his touch – his smile when he touches me – my draw to him even when we are across the room from each other – the way the background drifts away as we are talking or playing or touching. Funny how a crowded room goes quiet when you are with someone who captures your attention.
When I do talk about him, I’m still trying to figure out what to call him on the blog. He has declined the opportunity to name himself. I will be noodling on this one some more as nothing has jumped out at me. He may get my default name at this point – Fred. But we shall see.
I can’t wait until after the holidays – to have time to explore. See where this crazy things takes us. The holiday has been difficult as the family obligations and the like have kept us from seeing each other.
I look forward to it.
Because like our messages are an example of, we seem to have a connection. A connection that I cannot ignore. And I don’t plan on ignoring it – but exploring it.
Just that thought makes me smile.