I just want you to remember that you are not alone. Even when i may not be there or seem like I’m around, I am. I will be there if you need me.
I often find it hard to ask for an ear. I don’t want to impose on people. But, I find that sometimes asking gets me further than keeping it in my head where it can bounce around and make things hard to process – hard to truly work out and get my head around. It’s like that problem you’d get in school where you got a different answer every time because you started thinking too hard. It take an outside perspective – or even simply just talking about it to a friend – to get you to see that the answer was staring right there at you.
Just remember one thing – remember you ARE loved. You are someone very dear to me – and I do love you – love you for who you are – not what I want you to be or who I think you are. I love the way you know every 80s song there is. I love the fact you can’t sit still unless you adjust and readjust things making sure all is well for those around you. I love the fact you will work until late at night just so you can see your kid participate in and conquer whatever sport he’s playing that day – sacrificing sleep, so you don’t have to sacrifice missing seeing him succeed. I love how you will watch over me even from afar to make sure I’m okay. (Yes, I have noticed you do that.)
I love you, my friend. I want you happy. I want you to have exactly what you want in life because you deserve it. I have never been friends with someone who I have felt that strongly about that sentiment. And I don’t want you frustrated or hurting or angry. When I see it, I don’t like it. I’m protective of those I care about which is why, like you do with me, I try to watch over you too.
So know, that even when I don’t appear to be around, I am there for you.
Don’t forget that.
Because I don’t want you to ever feel alone.
(Oh, and I love my friend, but am not in love with my friend. There is nothing romantic here – just caring about someone. Don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea. I don’t think most will, but wanted to make it crystal clear for those few who may have a passing thought that maybe I’m meaning something more and wonder if my husband should be concerned. I don’t – and he shouldn’t. I would normally not worry about it, but I’ve encountered people who can’t tell the difference.)